بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

Alhamdulillah, the journey is definitely not what I expected it to be. Hah.

There is one constant I am learning, that is a tawakkul or trust in Allah that encompasses everything. It's been a few days since I've heard back from the person, for reasons unknown to me. But, Allah knows, and His knowledge and wisdom in what He decrees is sufficient for me to find some ease in this moment. 

A few lines derived from something someone once mentioned...

can't nobody take, away any thing, because it's what He put into place. this road I started, it's the future itself I chase, no need for yesterdays just Tomorrow all the way. I took from what's past all there was for me to learn, now Allah's destiny itself is my aim where khair in this life and next I try to earn. I barely know her yet, barely speak her language, yet there's signs underneath the surface, that this person's a keeper if I just stay near and patient. truly I've never been an angel, no saint I am to scoff or think another may be lesser, I'm just a dreamer going after his forevers. even if you stay silent, even if you never say another word, I promise I'll speak enough for us both, and pour forth this love without reserve. nah, you'll never drown, it'll just flood your heart to filling, until you let go all your reservations, and dare with me to dream again :)